I am a conch shell

She sells her soul on the sea shore Salty and salivating, lapping licking labour She sells her sex and some part of herself Slip and slice her her skin tonight, pouring of the bowls Arrrruuuuuuuuugah hooooooorrrrnnn Eyes starboard the knight sky, ships off the water fall Cliff and axe to cleave her face, heft through […]

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I am alone. I was never born

Poison and bane upon my brain, sublimates all memory. Erase my existence from all existence. The butterfly effect alternative ending. Concentrate, shut your eyes, hold my hand, pull it tight. The umbra, penumbra, antumbral chords. Pull and hold to activate the umbilical suffocation protocol. I hope I die before I wake. I have no soul […]

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PSA: The Winged Seer is watching

A slightly different set up than previous PSA posts. I included a couple of upcoming astrology transits that felt relevant to the reading before (my favourite part) we move on to the part where I use my super psionic pretend laser finger-pistols to pew-pew into the air. Yeah, I’m a space cowboy! Ah-hem, err… I […]

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My father helped build heaven, Peter was his name

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, through me to smite the shite out of those who have trespassed against us. Thanks for giving me hope and fortitude – my daily bread; and the knowledge it is symbolic of nourishment since I am diabetic and really need to count my carbs. Okie dokie. Espiritu santo, […]

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So long & thanks for all the ghoti

I have no idea what the hell I’m doing. What I’m writing. Why I’m writing. I’m just smacking my brain against the padded walls of the inside of my skull. Thwack thwack – fucking… just be… So, what’s the story morning glory? I could be like mother Mary with a blessing in my hole, I’ll […]

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LJ Archive: Aunt Apathy

19 january 2002 @ 12:01  laziness reaching a new level   ever felt so apathetic and lazy?sure people procrastinate and all, but i’ve reached an entire new level of apathy. just last night i stopped moving. i just sat there and stared into space. i couldn’t have cared less for the world, nor myself. even breathing […]

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LiveJournal Teenage Identity Crisis

01 february 2002 @ 18:33 blah. i feel so boring. no, i don’t feel bored, but i feel boring. like i’m even boring myself. i could just cry… i dunno. i just feel so pathetic all the time and like i don’t mean anything… i don’t like myself at all. why does felix like me? […]

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The homeless hearth

Burn fire burn. Ignite the world. Kicked out of home. Everyone will praise. The lifeless, loveless, emptiness. Lord, I am ending. Father, welcome me to wherever you are. Leave the earth behind, Kick up the dust to beguile. The scent of jasmine besides, upon the letter box. The daughter made it to the finals. Waiting […]

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I only wanted help

To find balance. At the tip of this carefully honed knife. The balanced blade. 2 of swords, the blind seer. The declared choice has been made. I wish (my/ki/me) would just go and kill you(her)self. I’m a genie in a bottle, baby. You came and rubbed me the right way. Karma in a bottle baby, […]

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Closing time

This is the end. Of what I have ever tried to be. The time has come for me to stop dreaming. This is the song that Spotify presented to me as I hit shuffle. Randomised the message from the divine for me to follow. And I have informed the echo of my intentions. To disappear […]

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Wisdom beat Disney

A playlist I just made up, not on spotify, but just thinking and writing… 8 disney, 8 beatles. Disney leads and beatles respond as a chorus or commentary… the male response to the female lead… I am all the Disney princesses mentioned here. I am also both Aladdin and Jasmin. AJ… ja, das me. The […]

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Kore of Queen Persephone

When I get anxious I like I think I’m not me, I protect myself with different identities. Not that I have any personality disorder or anything. Although I understand I can be seen as a psycho crazy lady. What I mean is that I pretend I’m someone else, and I can wear that skin instead […]

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Shed my skin: reveal

I am golden, a brand new face. Flayed my skin, kisan of damascus steel. B.o.B. – Magic, feat. Rivers Cuomo (full lyrics) I’ve got the magic in me. Everytime I touch the track it turns it into gold. Everybody knows I’ve got the magic in me. When I hit the floor the girls come snapping […]

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Why do I cry

why do i cry every time we say goodbye? why do i cry every time we part again? why do i cry every time you don’t reply so a simple message that i send? why do you mean so much to me even though i haven’t known you for too long? why does it seem […]

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Show me the meaning of lonely

It’s dark where I am. You do not want to stay here. I will push you to the light. Take a mother’s advice. The white Oleander is such a beautiful bloom. Foxgloves for this kitsune as she brews some tea. One cup for you. And one cup for me.

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Lost in my thoughts (Spam original)

Shadows within the darkness will you speak to me and answer the questions that rattles my mind – you are my eternal answer, my eternal anger. Reflection upon the mirror, when will you show me an image of myself, and why do I stare at you like I see someone else, like I see someone […]

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psychopathetic

I don’t normally explain the spreads or card that I draw on here. I tend to just throw up an image and go “have at!” It was only that one reading I wrote up in detail on here, and it was to help inspire me with what to do with this website. This happy little […]

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Trust no one. Even me.

There is no escape from one’s past. No escape from your actions, thoughts, words or memories. Because if you forget or try to move on? You bet someone is going to shove your face in it so you never get to move on. No one in particular does this to me. It is mostly just […]

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Venus in 7th scorpio

A couple more blasts from the past, pieces I had written but didn’t post as they were just half assed silhouettes of possible ideas… Ursula’s recent post about using astrology to talk about blogging made me think of the following… it is a snippet of me trying to mentally work through my personal natal astrology […]

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Someone knew

You were never there, Although you were. You blamed me for the rain One day. You tell me you love me And all these other lies. I smile and nod politely. You said you never meant to hurt me, Although I wanted to hurt you. I hated you, Then came down and cry to you. […]

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