learning, philosophy, linguistics, writing, archetypes, esoteric and occult studies, speaking, dialogue and discourse, symbols, semiotics, mythology, personal history, psychoanalysis, mental health, familial history, identity, personality, cognition, the concept of the soul, femininity, sex, bdsm, divinity, divination, colours, music, singing, drama, performing, escapism, addiction, sublimity, etymology, psychic phenomena, mind control and subversion, intelligence, relativity, subjective vs … Continue reading I made a list of my interests.
i don't know what i have done to deceive everyone? i have been lying to everyone my whole life and i don't know... what am i still doing? what have i missed or forgotten or hidden or obscure? i am manipulative and twist everyone's brains and minds and perceptions. i am unwilling to change. i … Continue reading I have been refining my lies since childhood
22 August 2018 I think … too much. Too hard. About everything. All the time. I am constantly thinking about my existence… everyone’s existence… not independently, but rather that I change and constantly reinvent myself and my behaviour in my head. So that way I fit with other people. I apparently give great advice, and … Continue reading Rerun 013: Confusion is m etaphilosopher
19 August 2018, originally titled "my head really hurts" I don’t know anything for sure. I don’t even know who or what I am nor my capabilities. The possibilities are endless. The fragmentation and permutations are infinite. I don’t even know or trust anything. I am endless in all that “I don’t know” because I … Continue reading Rerun 010: the Morning after headache
The world keeps perpetuating the concept of religion because it is rigid and firm - a skeleton to hold them up when they may want to lay down and die. It is too difficult to maintain strength in the face of self doubt and fear. Well, it is if you struggle with niggling "demons" (negative … Continue reading Concrete foundations to my stone cold POV.
Words - spear - (re)mind - bind/bound - bleed, heed. Freed, redeemed. Bled re(a)d. Waters of life leak out your eyes, clouded concoction brings clarity. Bloodshot eyes dried. Wipe away trickles of tears, rip and tear whiter wrists. Horse hooves at your heels, hoof it, hoofer. Dance the dense danse macabre. Beast beats ego death. … Continue reading Ktheonic s/word s/myth
I wish I was a god. That way I could do whatever I wanted. Like god in dogma. The Alanis Morrissette version of god. So before I go any further. I should lay down some pop culture inspirations, reference points. I'm not going to cite everything. But if you know of these films/tv series/novels then … Continue reading My real deepest darkest wish: achieve godhood.
http://poll.fm/650m3 What was it that first brought you to me?If you are new here, what would you like Aaron to conjure from this arkon of kimberlies? Which webs of worlds would you like to see? What do you seek when you come visit me? For seeing is believing, your heart beast is seizing. Synetheising... 17122a … Continue reading Bite into the Apple of discord; a post, a poll, apostle Apollo.
Ok this is ridiculous but I think I know what I'm supposed to say but it is so not how I normally operate. I'm all about freedom - freedom for and freedom from.. whatever. You do you as long as it doesn't hurt anyone. But don't let that stop you from doing you, either. Freedom … Continue reading The god killer (skillet jackal)
I really shouldn't be talking about it. I'd be breaking the first two rules if I did. Metatrope won't drop the soap on a rope. Might need to wash your brain with my wisdom manifesto, though. Lather, rinse, repeat. Always repeat. I am Tyler Durden (or should I say Tyler Durden is me?) and I … Continue reading Fight (me) club
I have so many fucking ideas. So many wells of inspiration from which to write. And I know I have it in me to produce writing that titillates the pleasures and this is different for everyone. I produce a kind of experience, if sensation is what you seek. I reveal the invisible links and threads … Continue reading Eo nomine
Poison and bane upon my brain, sublimates all memory. Erase my existence from all existence. The butterfly effect alternative ending. Concentrate, shut your eyes, hold my hand, pull it tight. The umbra, penumbra, antumbral chords. Pull and hold to activate the umbilical suffocation protocol. I hope I die before I wake. I have no soul … Continue reading I am alone. I was never born
3:33 in to the podcast and I have to press pause and rant. Mother fucking fucker. This is the the magician I referred to in Wolf of Antimony's post like an hour ago, and the one I mentioned in my post from this morning about my plans for this site. Honestly, I hadn't even heard … Continue reading Jason Louv podcast #39 (posted last Thursday?)
Don't let them in, don't let them see. They don't deserve to be set free. That is what both she and he implored me. Let it go, Metatrope. Can't hold it back anymore. I let it go, all of it gone to the winds and sky. I cried. I was howling. The wolves of winter … Continue reading Combatome, come to get her
Erase my face, Blot out my name, Silhouette remains; Empty cache. It has happened again. Repeat the program. A slave to their game, A loyal servant. Erase my words, Delete every phrase. My epitaph you rewrite For you must always be right. Recode the coda. Tightrope walk the line. I am demonised for I defied … Continue reading Anonymous K
I have scheduled posts. I started setting them up since the close of last month. So... I guess what I'm trying to say is goodbye. Again. I know I've said that a bunch of times. And I never follow through. I mean, I never really leave because I always come back. I don't know what … Continue reading The Holy Ghost
To find balance. At the tip of this carefully honed knife. The balanced blade. 2 of swords, the blind seer. The declared choice has been made. I wish (my/ki/me) would just go and kill you(her)self. I'm a genie in a bottle, baby. You came and rubbed me the right way. Karma in a bottle baby, … Continue reading I only wanted help
When I get anxious I like I think I'm not me, I protect myself with different identities. Not that I have any personality disorder or anything. Although I understand I can be seen as a psycho crazy lady. What I mean is that I pretend I'm someone else, and I can wear that skin instead … Continue reading Kore of Queen Persephone
16 personalities, a branch of Myer Briggs Temperament Indic-ates that I am a Diplomat, for I have a predilection for INTUITIVE FEELING (diplomacy) and TURBULENT EXTROVERSION (social engagement) as my dominant character traits and behavioural strategies. I experience a lot of feelings. ALL THE FEELS at the helm of the merkabah, for that is the … Continue reading Too much, too little, too early and late
0510 oz:io Azure blue sky with -ll The vowels come marching one by one Mhmm - hurrah harruh... uh-ha? . A - antlia E - ea I - io O - oh U - eu Wait... wha and why? Yes, and nou. . The famous five and the secret seven. A dozen black birds thrown … Continue reading A ratio of nations