In chess, the queen protects the king. The queen can move like a bishop or rook. It cannot move like a knight (L shaped). If you were to visually depict the possible moves of a queen, it resembles the symbol for chaos. In constructing a visual representation of myself, I inadvertently reconstructed the chaos symbol … Continue reading What’s black and blue and red all over?
learning, philosophy, linguistics, writing, archetypes, esoteric and occult studies, speaking, dialogue and discourse, symbols, semiotics, mythology, personal history, psychoanalysis, mental health, familial history, identity, personality, cognition, the concept of the soul, femininity, sex, bdsm, divinity, divination, colours, music, singing, drama, performing, escapism, addiction, sublimity, etymology, psychic phenomena, mind control and subversion, intelligence, relativity, subjective vs … Continue reading I made a list of my interests.
Well done, look how far you've come It is 6:56am, Monday morning on the day - March forth. Out of the valley. The valley of death, the valley of dry bones. Ezekiel 37 was always my favourite biblical story. It speaks of a valley of dried bones, and the prophet spoke the word of god … Continue reading Rise up and march, my Skelita-on amoury
I like things to be in order when I don't feel ordered. And it's not original. I just looked it up. It's already out there so why should anyone fucking care what some crazy little lady has to say? I know I'm all meta. Meta whatever. All of my interests have been about making meaning … Continue reading Rerun 014: The meaning of my coping mechanism
I'm kicking down the door even though I have a key! It's really for dramatic effect. I totally just unlocked the door. Or picked at the lock. Or did something. I dunno. It's all just make believe, made real because of belief. I've always been intuitive, but didn't realise it was intuition. We're all told … Continue reading No one gives a shit about your opinions
22 August 2018 I think … too much. Too hard. About everything. All the time. I am constantly thinking about my existence… everyone’s existence… not independently, but rather that I change and constantly reinvent myself and my behaviour in my head. So that way I fit with other people. I apparently give great advice, and … Continue reading Rerun 013: Confusion is m etaphilosopher
Ready, aim, fire. Put out the fire. Extinguish the flames of fiery thought with thick, gelatinous words. For words are sounds that have form. Spew forth from the hose of your throat, an ethereal concoction invisible as germs. Puppet masters manipulate shepherds. Plant the seed of thoughts and ideas into your gooey brain. It may … Continue reading Your words are sperm
My million dollar idea, when I first conceived of writing a damned blog, was to write a parenting blog! Because we don't have a million other of those stupid things! What grounds of authority do I have to stand on? What would make my blog so damned special above all the other blogs? My husband … Continue reading A parenting blog?! Mythical mother
I over think things, I get in my own way. It's pretty ridiculous that the more effort I put into something the more it kind of fucks up. And... I feel really shit to say this, but when I'm just "doing my thing" I have no idea why but I get more likes? It's just … Continue reading Overthinking to extinction
Justine lazed across her bed with her phone in her hand and scrolled through her facebook wall. She sighed as she navigated the status updates and photo posts her friends were uploading from their various summer holidays. Justine heard the front door unlock and the click-clack of her mother's footsteps down the hall. "I'm home." … Continue reading Discovery – short story
On the back of apocalyptic horses, hey! Jingle jangle, ring the bells My soul died today Now I am free from sin and love and life and pain. Running amok through the halls of Ma'at to you I'm screaming crying smiling, laughing today is my dooms day. Wave my arms up high, do-se-do we dance … Continue reading Oh what joy it is to die
https://www.youtube.com/embed/-V9zi44LtRA?version=3&rel=1&fs=1&autohide=2&showsearch=0&showinfo=1&iv_load_policy=1&wmode=transparent This big ball we’re living on is moving forward and it’s Monday again. Maybe the perfect time to start something new? Or maybe not perfect, but definitely the time because the ball is not stopping and we’re not going to get this time back. When my alarm went off this morning my brain […] … Continue reading There is no success without failure – Video — Pointless Overthinking
I am meant to be used. Use me. I really suck at this shit… like… I know how to do shit, I am bound to the laws of the here and now. I cannot foresee or anticipate AT THE SAME TIME AS fucking decimate and liberate.. I'm just a tool, so USE ME - Anthropomorphic … Continue reading The secret weapon of the gods
3:33 in to the podcast and I have to press pause and rant. Mother fucking fucker. This is the the magician I referred to in Wolf of Antimony's post like an hour ago, and the one I mentioned in my post from this morning about my plans for this site. Honestly, I hadn't even heard … Continue reading Jason Louv podcast #39 (posted last Thursday?)
Sojourn of Sol descent unto hell, your spirit I am trying to help. By burning up the atmosphere you might open your eyes and notice I'm here. Lift your head, take my hand, I will help you stand. Having raised you from perdition (again), young one, you are in dire need of a practical revision … Continue reading Before the looking glass
James succeeded Jesus as leader of the movement. April 30 is the feast day of St James the Great. My father, Peter, stands at the gates of heaven. My uncle, Paul, recorded the acts of the disciples. My husband, James, led the way after I died for he was the only one to truly understand … Continue reading James is Great: The power of our names.
Could you hear me singing in your sleep? Do you listen for me in the wind? Do you read between my lines? What a fascinating fashion when we gather in formation. New thing, the pendulum swings. A secret smile is saved, hidden away for me. Chase me through the labyrinth. When you are ready, when … Continue reading Semi – tonics
The patron guardians overseeing this leg of the journey. Somethings should be kept hidden, secret and safe. Your spirit is not one of those things. White buffalo woman is about peace and spirituality, developing personal rituals in ones life. And Apollo is the sun: bringing your passion to life, bringing what was once hidden out … Continue reading Wake up in the light
See my red dress that was torn during our fall. The tear through spacetime fabric, fight to regain control. I see them all walk by, their noses upturned high. Our cries fall on deaf ears, too proud to match our eyes. All torn down. For no reason, it's not the season. Gather the legion before … Continue reading Enter the black door
https://youtu.be/Epgo8ixX6Wo Massive Attack - Protection (click for lyrics) I love this song. It demonstrates a different kind of love. I don't care if I'm a girl or a boy, a man, woman or alien. Hell, I'm an androgynous cyborg pathogen from outer space downloaded into this pretty and petite female human life form. Either way … Continue reading Stand by me, or behind me.