14 January 2019, 8:05am; I have gotten into the habit of taking screen caps of comments I write, in an attempt to track the automata of my production and magical manipulative power over the word. The last 6 comments I wrote. Starting no more than 10 hours ago with the ashes of the lucid being. … Continue reading Move or sink slowly, my treasure
22 August 2018 I think … too much. Too hard. About everything. All the time. I am constantly thinking about my existence… everyone’s existence… not independently, but rather that I change and constantly reinvent myself and my behaviour in my head. So that way I fit with other people. I apparently give great advice, and … Continue reading Rerun 013: Confusion is m etaphilosopher
Listen, do you you want to know a secret? An them for anni kyrios. The sound of the broken. Phoenix, The butterfly effect. Knocking on the door, thumping with cries and fists. What's the password? Thy mine sofia moral moria. It's a secret. I don't say. Just shut your mouth, hands sew lips hard end … Continue reading Keyself through the 4 worlds
3:33 in to the podcast and I have to press pause and rant. Mother fucking fucker. This is the the magician I referred to in Wolf of Antimony's post like an hour ago, and the one I mentioned in my post from this morning about my plans for this site. Honestly, I hadn't even heard … Continue reading Jason Louv podcast #39 (posted last Thursday?)
Recap of snippets of stuff that has led us to this point, under my heading. The tarot divination for the year ahead - Apocalypse, in May. I announced the pale horse rides out on 18th May, and it turns out there are quite a few things happening that day!Venus conjunct Uranus. Angel of regeneration, baby.On … Continue reading 2019 May end with my apocalypse.
I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. What I'm writing. Why I'm writing. I'm just smacking my brain against the padded walls of the inside of my skull. Thwack thwack - fucking... just be... So, what's the story morning glory? I could be like mother Mary with a blessing in my hole, I'll … Continue reading So long & thanks for all the ghoti
01 february 2002 @ 18:33 blah. i feel so boring. no, i don't feel bored, but i feel boring. like i'm even boring myself. i could just cry... i dunno. i just feel so pathetic all the time and like i don't mean anything... i don't like myself at all. why does felix like me? … Continue reading LiveJournal Teenage Identity Crisis
Bloody Mary, you cursed her name for she figured out your wretched game. Lilith was a problem so you snuffed her out with Eve, until she too outgrew you. Zebra stripes in a concrete jungle, the greyjoy Zeus civility monochrome landscape of wavey lines. You could not replace me. You could not escape me. But … Continue reading Bleeding Venus
0510 oz:io Azure blue sky with -ll The vowels come marching one by one Mhmm - hurrah harruh... uh-ha? . A - antlia E - ea I - io O - oh U - eu Wait... wha and why? Yes, and nou. . The famous five and the secret seven. A dozen black birds thrown … Continue reading A ratio of nations
Took the free psychological archetype quiz at lonerwolf.com (which is an absolutely hilarious oxymoron right there) and here is my result. (Copied and pasted the text, but the images are my own inclusions.) The Destroyer One very essential part of our journeys of self-exploration is to understand the underlying motivations that drive a lot of … Continue reading My psychological archetype is DESTRUCTO! Hoo-rah-roar! *Godzilla screech*
Someone just packed a cone, sparks up a lighter and takes a long drawn hit from their bong. The noise of the bubbles is surprisingly loud and cuts through the silent crowd. As the smoke is drawn from the cone piece, down through the hose, and up through the water filter, the stoner holds the … Continue reading Let he without sin cast the first stone
J.Zeus aligns down the crosshairs, I’ve got the keys to the wheels. It’s up to you to pull the trigger, snipe the veil between your eyes. Mother and Father are so black and white, they don’t care if you live or die. Thanks to my rebellious uncle’s transistor The keys to the house of … Continue reading 2019: the year of the uprising
All I wanted, all I needed was you in my arms. Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm. Enjoy the silence. No we're not nameless, we're not faceless, we were born for greatness. What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I love turns on me in the end. You could have had … Continue reading The black swan dives for Ja & Me’S.
You know how I like to identify with pop culture characters? Well guess what just clicked to me? (and my phone just beeped for New Moon Libra, 9th Oct). I'm Wacko. I used to watch this Warner Bros show as a kid, I thought it was hilarious because it was so ridiculous and meta. When I … Continue reading Exogetic Animania 01: Dot.
Late last year, I had read this post and it was a dream she had that night. I chose to share it because it reminded me of a dream I had for this mmmother. Carine's dream says (to me) "Hey, look you, it's me! You! And I'm in her dream!" that is me. Recognition of … Continue reading My Voice: refinement of the viva voce