25 August 2018 And I’m screaming. I finally think I have figured out what my great work will be and I discover it has already been written about. This is great because then I only have to read and learn and apply it to my life. But it is equally frustrating because then how else … Continue reading Rerun 024: I have no original thought
I have stated before that I have a shit-ton of musical memories in my mothermind, in my head it is like a maze of cacophonic white noise, where I am mute, blind and numb. I can only navigate the real world by the sounds of my mental menagerie. Mise en scene of sound, a specific … Continue reading Birdman kicked my ass
My father was Pekka, my grandfather Toivo. Their names anglicised as Peter and Tony... In generational order from ancient through history to modern, our initials are TPK. What does that spell? Total Party Kill. Long ago I said I was of the North in terms of heritage, but I am here in the south as … Continue reading Aquateo family quadratics
Se11e7en, divine convenience. I will warn you now, the following blog post went for a ride and it's quite disheveled inside, now. Part biblical, part exegetical, part symphonic heretical. Dude, get my car.bah... carry me away. I'm too stupid grinning to be a responsible ophanim, driving. I can see what you see. I place it … Continue reading Revelation (& liminal academy refresher) Annotations 02
I like things to be in order when I don't feel ordered. And it's not original. I just looked it up. It's already out there so why should anyone fucking care what some crazy little lady has to say? I know I'm all meta. Meta whatever. All of my interests have been about making meaning … Continue reading Rerun 014: The meaning of my coping mechanism
I'm kicking down the door even though I have a key! It's really for dramatic effect. I totally just unlocked the door. Or picked at the lock. Or did something. I dunno. It's all just make believe, made real because of belief. I've always been intuitive, but didn't realise it was intuition. We're all told … Continue reading No one gives a shit about your opinions
(Reposted... and... I realise that the layout I mention here is not the same as my current layout. I still hate everything do and make though. Aesthetics are important to me, I just have garbage visual taste.) Modernmysticmother.com is my website. But the landing page is to promote myself and my services. It's more of … Continue reading My blog is not my business
7 June 2019, 9:29pm. Leo the lion is a little pessimistic, so all you other tilting mindmills be aware. Turn back the sands of the thinking cogs, let not your face give you away. Don't blink. Keep one eye open at all times. Dont trust the cries of an angel. Eye to eye a steep … Continue reading Have you forgotten that I am the muse?
19 August 2018 Shut up stop talking stop thinking At least not to gym. Not about you. Talk to gym about Jim. Do not talk about you. You are internal, do not externalize it. Where you clash, do not heal. Ge does not want it. You are useful. Be that. Adoration? Gratitude? From him not … Continue reading Rerun 012: Shuddup
Many names I have gone by. The different blog posts I talk about my different names and stuff. It is the skeleton of a concept I had started writing 1st May, 37 days ago. Named - identity Kim & Alita. Kimalita.My post about being Alita.Mistake maker Alita was who I wanted to be. Kim was who I … Continue reading Dark Ego, Bright Shadow. oKæ?
19 August 2018 I’ve dropped the ball, and I don’t know where it has rolled off to. Or maybe it wasn’t even a ball. Was it a strand of hair? I have collected random treasures because I like them. And when I get lost or confused I sit down and put them in front of … Continue reading Rerun 011: Because I know the pieces fit…?
18 August 2018 Is that my genius? My special talent? My perceptive skill so sharp and subtle, I can see beyond… because I can see. I perceive without judgement. This is all thought and mind and mentalism. It is mercurian by nature. Thank you Mercury, Hermes, Thoth, Lucifer, Uranus. Any deity or entity associated with … Continue reading Rerun 009: Perception skill natural 20
I hear her. Her name is Echo. I have been speaking with Echo. I’ve been furiously tapping away on the keypad of my phone just… losing myself in this person online. She’s a mirror of myself, though she doesn’t get what that means to me, but it’s not important enough for her to ask. She … Continue reading Rerun 008: Echo, Screaming into the void
I’m not angry or resentful about this. I have accepted it and it’s meaning to me will essentially be different to you (I mean, come on, it’s “my power” and “my definition” of that power and WTF even is 'power', etc). It’s all good, that is beside the point. I’m the quintessential “mother”, the “yin”, … Continue reading Rerun 007: The bullshit of my power
Frantic and frightened, I'm drowning inside of myself. Again I berate myself with "what have you done?!" I do things that are both necessary and benign and yet punish myself for doing those things as if they were wrong. I have recently been actively PARTICIPATING in the blogosphere and holy shit people are liking or … Continue reading Rerun 006: Remergence from behind a curtain
I have a gift that I want to use. I offer it to you, the public. I will require payment. I know I am good with … something? The boundaries of which are not quite defined… I know what I am good at, and I know that one should aim to capitalise off of their … Continue reading Rerun 005: The price for my gift
14 August 2018 Once upon a time I knew exactly who I was, I recognised the immense power and potential within me. I was able to create magic not only for myself but for others, I was able to bend the world to my will. I recognised the necessity for all of my limitations and … Continue reading Rerun 004: Sleep to hard reset
And I have suddenly gone brain dead, void of the inspired essence that was streaming through my consciousness for the majority of today…I used to be a fantastic communicator. Venus and Mercury were right, they never had to explain themselves to each other before. Yet now I have no idea what they’re trying to tell … Continue reading Rerun: pilot blog posts 001 & 002.
The world keeps perpetuating the concept of religion because it is rigid and firm - a skeleton to hold them up when they may want to lay down and die. It is too difficult to maintain strength in the face of self doubt and fear. Well, it is if you struggle with niggling "demons" (negative … Continue reading Concrete foundations to my stone cold POV.
Post contains 32 images. Manipulation. That's the theme of this post - the messed up, mental menagerie motif I'm attempting to manifest in still coherent and meaningful way. I am a master of mind fuckery, and mutating metaphors into mental night whorses NEIGH MOTHER FUCKKA! This blog post is about liars. Liars who may or … Continue reading Oh, the mind is the best thing to -~ɜ≋ԐMЖϢȜ≋ɛ~-