25 August 2018 And I’m screaming. I finally think I have figured out what my great work will be and I discover it has already been written about. This is great because then I only have to read and learn and apply it to my life. But it is equally frustrating because then how else … Continue reading Rerun 024: I have no original thought
Haven't slept for days, been floating on the waves of liquid aether, Branded as insane, he has invaded the quiet secret keeper This isn't what you wanted, how now your life revolves around him With feelings not reciprocated, you hate him because you love him. Were we to meet here or on the way down? … Continue reading At the top of a mountain, the wind in my ears
Modern day Kalliope. ME. 😀 University educated. Happily married. Mother of 2. Jack of all trades master of none. I'd rather be a jack of all trades than master of one. Bachelor of Arts. Master of Teaching. Major in English, text and writing, sub major in education, sub major in art history and cinema studies. … Continue reading My made-up mythic curriculum vitae
I like things to be in order when I don't feel ordered. And it's not original. I just looked it up. It's already out there so why should anyone fucking care what some crazy little lady has to say? I know I'm all meta. Meta whatever. All of my interests have been about making meaning … Continue reading Rerun 014: The meaning of my coping mechanism
(Reposted... and... I realise that the layout I mention here is not the same as my current layout. I still hate everything do and make though. Aesthetics are important to me, I just have garbage visual taste.) Modernmysticmother.com is my website. But the landing page is to promote myself and my services. It's more of … Continue reading My blog is not my business
I over think things, I get in my own way. It's pretty ridiculous that the more effort I put into something the more it kind of fucks up. And... I feel really shit to say this, but when I'm just "doing my thing" I have no idea why but I get more likes? It's just … Continue reading Overthinking to extinction
I wish I was a god. That way I could do whatever I wanted. Like god in dogma. The Alanis Morrissette version of god. So before I go any further. I should lay down some pop culture inspirations, reference points. I'm not going to cite everything. But if you know of these films/tv series/novels then … Continue reading My real deepest darkest wish: achieve godhood.
Ok this is ridiculous but I think I know what I'm supposed to say but it is so not how I normally operate. I'm all about freedom - freedom for and freedom from.. whatever. You do you as long as it doesn't hurt anyone. But don't let that stop you from doing you, either. Freedom … Continue reading The god killer (skillet jackal)
https://www.youtube.com/embed/-V9zi44LtRA?version=3&rel=1&fs=1&autohide=2&showsearch=0&showinfo=1&iv_load_policy=1&wmode=transparent This big ball we’re living on is moving forward and it’s Monday again. Maybe the perfect time to start something new? Or maybe not perfect, but definitely the time because the ball is not stopping and we’re not going to get this time back. When my alarm went off this morning my brain […] … Continue reading There is no success without failure – Video — Pointless Overthinking
3:33 in to the podcast and I have to press pause and rant. Mother fucking fucker. This is the the magician I referred to in Wolf of Antimony's post like an hour ago, and the one I mentioned in my post from this morning about my plans for this site. Honestly, I hadn't even heard … Continue reading Jason Louv podcast #39 (posted last Thursday?)
Holy shit stop censoring yourself and allow the words that flow so freely from your mouth be diverted to flow through your fingers as you type this message. Remember bitch, remember. It is a book. A beginning of a potential whatever. But it is a starting point to offer the market and convince them to … Continue reading Wake up, Wednesday.
29 August 2018 I exist in the spaces between. That’s where I am do what I do best. I can't stay in any one place for too long. Because I’m a fixer, and I cant fix what isn't broken. I connect hearts, and I speak the truth. But I’m not a leader… I could be … Continue reading Rerun 031: Where does my power lie
To come in to this world, you needed some shit. or some shit like that. who cares. everything is the same anyway. I lament my existence. Why the fuck do I keep doing this to myself? Why do you keep doing this to me? I just want the endless cycle to be over. Take me … Continue reading I NEVER NEEDED but YOU made Me this waY.
25 August 2018 I’m the bridge, I cross divides I cross all of them all of the time. But I’m not a bridge, I am made of flesh and gore And those materials won’t last forever. My great work is to teach others How to cross the divide How to bridge the gap But what … Continue reading Rerun 023: I’m a bridge, use it
This morning I woke up from a dream and I don’t remember what the dream was or anything anymore, because time separates us from the “knowledge” we possessed. When every morning is a “rebirth”, and so we end up forgetting whatever we discovered while we were “dead” (asleep). Ugh. I love symbols. I just “get … Continue reading Rerun 020: Confess! But make no apologies
I am a goddess and I need to be petitioned with entreaties and treats if I am to bequeath blessings unto you and your own.
I love pop culture and the artists and creators of our time. Even cosplayers! I always wanted to be a performer. Because then I could pretend to be someone else. When Robin Williams died, he was the only famous person whose death I mourned. I cried when he died. He was legendary. He was funny … Continue reading I’m the artist that doesn’t do art
Remember that awareness of the issue doesn't actually change anything. Knowing shit doesn't mean anything though. Knowledge doesn't protect you, it's what you do with it. So this "change" in the world? It's not just in the wider macrocosm out there, it's also in the microcosm. Our personal inner worlds, too. Because motherfucker, I was … Continue reading Ch-ch-ch-ch-changey change
I have been so bloody preoccupied with this concept of personal branding and identifying my "niche" that I haven't actually done much writing. And the shit I want to write about is so varied that it's hard to figure out how to promote and present myself. You know, for 'success'. It's not even related to … Continue reading More than the sum of my parts