Eo nomine

I have so many fucking ideas. So many wells of inspiration from which to write. And I know I have it in me to produce writing that titillates the pleasures and this is different for everyone. I produce a kind of experience, if sensation is what you seek. I reveal the invisible links and threads […]

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Kore of Queen Persephone

When I get anxious I like I think I’m not me, I protect myself with different identities. Not that I have any personality disorder or anything. Although I understand I can be seen as a psycho crazy lady. What I mean is that I pretend I’m someone else, and I can wear that skin instead […]

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Livejournal archive: I am a stigma

09 October 2001 @ 09:37 >> i don’t know what to do with myself   last night all i could think about was dying. i was thinking about that movie “stigmata” and how the girl had these nails go right through her wrists. i wanted to do that to me. i wanted to die. and […]

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My husband is better than any man

He is god. A god. To me. He is god to me. Like god. So he’s basically my god. And noooooo. He has not brain washed me in any way. Certainly not. I want that to be made clear. We’ve been married for… this year we will be celebrating our 12th wedding anniversary on November […]

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aSSHHH… speak of my sonnet to no one.

I told Ash I would share my really scrappy sorry excuse for a sonnet. It vaguely leans in the direction of a sonata criterium. Sort of, near enough, close enough, is that good enough. Lazy and stuff. That’s me, through and through. I’m the muse of bards, but not always a bard. I am skald […]

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I might write, but I’m not a writer.

In the comments section of this afternoon’s muse report, chatting with Ron gave cause for me wonder how many blog posts I had written here on WordPress. Doing the math on it sent me into a tailspin. With all of this so called “writing” one may think I would have improved “my craft” and be […]

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My mind, my thoughts, my words, my voice, my self.

Names are super important to me. Because through names, we understand or learn to understand things. Object Relationship Entity model. I think. I dunno. Thats something I remember maybe when I was trying to look up data-banks. It was something I was reading about to help me understand how memories are formed, filed, stored and […]

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This is my way. My highway through hell.

13 December 2018, 8:52pm. Today has been incredible. It has been… I don’t even know how to start this. The way that I write is truly the way that I think in my head. Whenever I insert an ellipsis (…) it is indicative of me pausing for thought… It shows hesitation on my part. The hesitation is […]

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