My real deepest darkest wish: achieve godhood.

I wish I was a god. That way I could do whatever I wanted. Like god in dogma. The Alanis Morrissette version of god. So before I go any further. I should lay down some pop culture inspirations, reference points. I’m not going to cite everything. But if you know of these films/tv series/novels then […]

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My pretend house will be so large, you won’t be able to find me when I cry

In some ways I’m a bit like Belle from in Disney’s Beauty and the Beast. On the outside I’m brunette, a bit peculiar, judgmental, and headstrong. In other ways I feel like crazy old Maurice: insane, creative, obsessive, frail. I’m also not an old French dude; I also like steam punk. I feel like a […]

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There is no success without failure – Video — Pointless Overthinking

This big ball we’re living on is moving forward and it’s Monday again. Maybe the perfect time to start something new? Or maybe not perfect, but definitely the time because the ball is not stopping and we’re not going to get this time back. When my alarm went off this morning my brain […] via […]

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Combatome, come to get her

Don’t let them in, don’t let them see. They don’t deserve to be set free. That is what both she and he implored me. Let it go, Metatrope. Can’t hold it back anymore. I let it go, all of it gone to the winds and sky. I cried. I was howling. The wolves of winter […]

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PSA: The Winged Seer is watching

A slightly different set up than previous PSA posts. I included a couple of upcoming astrology transits that felt relevant to the reading before (my favourite part) we move on to the part where I use my super psionic pretend laser finger-pistols to pew-pew into the air. Yeah, I’m a space cowboy! Ah-hem, err… I […]

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We spin and ring our roses, a delightful game

This is not the first time we’ve danced, our fingers touching hands through the keys to the screens… Do you remember back then? You might have been 10? We took turns whispering our words in each other’s ears. We were so quiet and sad, we were so lonely. But it was ever so liberating to […]

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LJ Archive: Aunt Apathy

19 january 2002 @ 12:01  laziness reaching a new level   ever felt so apathetic and lazy?sure people procrastinate and all, but i’ve reached an entire new level of apathy. just last night i stopped moving. i just sat there and stared into space. i couldn’t have cared less for the world, nor myself. even breathing […]

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Stream of consciousness

A livejournal entry from 6th March 2002. I had completed the writing exercise by hand on pen and paper, and transcribed it on to my Live Journal. I don’t remember why I didn’t just do it on the computer, but that doesn’t really matter. LOL. blank your mind out, take paper and a pen… and […]

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LiveJournal Teenage Identity Crisis

01 february 2002 @ 18:33 blah. i feel so boring. no, i don’t feel bored, but i feel boring. like i’m even boring myself. i could just cry… i dunno. i just feel so pathetic all the time and like i don’t mean anything… i don’t like myself at all. why does felix like me? […]

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Kore of Queen Persephone

When I get anxious I like I think I’m not me, I protect myself with different identities. Not that I have any personality disorder or anything. Although I understand I can be seen as a psycho crazy lady. What I mean is that I pretend I’m someone else, and I can wear that skin instead […]

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Too much, too little, too early and late

16 personalities, a branch of Myer Briggs Temperament Indic-ates that I am a Diplomat, for I have a predilection for INTUITIVE FEELING (diplomacy) and TURBULENT EXTROVERSION (social engagement) as my dominant character traits and behavioural strategies. I experience a lot of feelings. ALL THE FEELS at the helm of the merkabah, for that is the […]

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I will not be possessed

The only spirit I want to house within me is my own. God sounds like a necromancer. . I’m broken and I need Nothing. I need no one. Or rather, I need too much. I hate that I need anything at all. If it takes forever, I’ll die trying to abstain. . Where did all […]

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I’m heavy water…

The state of water is dependent upon the environment it exists. So I could be an ice queen, or steamy. I try to be more mindful of myself, my words, my actions because I do understand their power and influence. I tend to act a mirror with people, and when I may be trying to […]

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Guardian at the end of the galaxy

I am a prolific writer. Or rather, I talk a lot. I prefer the mode of speech, vocalisation to communicate my message as that is much more direct – instantaneous. I am born on the cusp of a generation that thrives on INSTANT GRATIFICATION. I am the perpetually satisfied seeker, as I live in the […]

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This poem

This poem Is manufactured In an uninspired moment. This poem Refuses to maintain interest; Incapable, Impotent. This poem Reflects the apathy of the youth. This poem Is a clone Of the other poems That speak of ‘this poem.’ This poem Masquerades Tolerance and boredom. This poem Confuses Laziness with selfishness, And this poem. K 2011.

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Livejournal archive: I am a stigma

09 October 2001 @ 09:37 >> i don’t know what to do with myself   last night all i could think about was dying. i was thinking about that movie “stigmata” and how the girl had these nails go right through her wrists. i wanted to do that to me. i wanted to die. and […]

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Bare book borrowed

Braving the cold, Baring the soul, Exposing the skin And hair. Waiting in queue To use a computer, The bag over your shoulder Covers your back, But I see every curve Of your anatomy. Oblivious to the stares, The sniggers, You use inker in The universal knowledge exchange. Wearing nothing, Wanting something, Is it more […]

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A Journey

She enters the room. The walls are bare, The bed is stripped, A suitcase placed in the Middle of the floor. A note is written on pristine paper, A tear trickles down Her cheek. The closet is empty, The suitcase is heavy, She didn’t have to do a thing. She drags the suitcase down The […]

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Can we hurt our bodies with our mindsets? — Pointless Overthinking

This is an interesting topic I think about very often, but I haven’t thought about writing a post about it so thank you Kalliope for giving me the idea! Ok, let’s dig in. First of all, I want to mention that this isn’t about taking some particular actions to hurt ourselves. It’s not about auto-flagellating […]

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Rerun 025: The want to be free to be all of me

25 August 2018 I want to live a truly authentic life. That is financially viable. And sustainable. I want all of these different part of me to not be so separate. I want to live in perfect harmony with all of these parts of me… and have them valued. To not have to hide any […]

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