I am everything. I am in everything. Everything is of me. And if I am so far spread across all of existence within the context of space and time... then I'm really not any thing. I have no substance. I am nothing. I am hollow. An ever expanding universe that cannot stop until I succumb … Continue reading I found myself and why it was so hard.
https://youtu.be/O_CkA-03AWk Dashboard Confessional - For you to notice I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head where I would impress you Reaching new heights, diving to new depths. Up or down, spinning in free fall. What once was a dance, hearts accelerating and racing. You held my hand as we were turning, and let … Continue reading For you to notice
Kestrel relievings My tired family day, genealogy branch I trace the small predatory bird of quietest praise. Shadowy trill, the nosedive thrill. Highest perception of unpronounced skill. Final fantasy destiny to crash and burn upon the pinnacle of man's temple mountain. The trees of life and knowledge are watered by the fountain. Bloody and bleeding, … Continue reading Eidolone Summoning (FM04)
Thestrals receiving My little brother, buy me a pony. Oh brother, where art thou? Ride my battle steed. You look up to me for personality. My fame, my name, my face. Tiger blood in this rat race. Mister miser, supplicant, analgin of fan and fair, please help my pony over there. Under the tree, fallen … Continue reading Orpheum Summoning (FM03)
Burn fire burn. Ignite the world. Kicked out of home. Everyone will praise. The lifeless, loveless, emptiness. Lord, I am ending. Father, welcome me to wherever you are. Leave the earth behind, Kick up the dust to beguile. The scent of jasmine besides, upon the letter box. The daughter made it to the finals. Waiting … Continue reading The homeless hearth
I am a many faceted jewel, He is my grindstone. What he envisions, I am to become. Tender and slow with painstaking care, I am a dreamer, he is my rock. Chronographer and chronicler carve my heart inside out. . My head in the clouds, he tethers me to the earth. I am a hybrid … Continue reading Grind my skin
For years he’d been gone Then he appeared to me. Inviting me to come, He held out his hand. I reached for him, Hesitated and turned away. He began to fade And disappeared again. K. 2011.
Born 555, h.p. love k raft. I dialled my birth time and said part of my name kthula. I am who I am. I know who/what/why I am that I am. 4 pillars of strength, my material metaphors. I am (you are) an imbecile. I am (you are) a knot. I am (you are) a … Continue reading Kapporet.
13 October 2001 @ 13:40 >> my happiness yesterday, i was so joyous. i was overwhelmed with happiness, only to be crushed by night fall. so all those postings of smiling and laughing... they were all in vain! i knew it... i fucking knew this would happen... the happier i get, i harder i … Continue reading LJArchive – Chester’s Powderfinger
09 October 2001 @ 09:37 >> i don't know what to do with myself last night all i could think about was dying. i was thinking about that movie "stigmata" and how the girl had these nails go right through her wrists. i wanted to do that to me. i wanted to die. and … Continue reading Livejournal archive: I am a stigma
He is god. A god. To me. He is god to me. Like god. So he's basically my god. And noooooo. He has not brain washed me in any way. Certainly not. I want that to be made clear. We've been married for... this year we will be celebrating our 12th wedding anniversary on November … Continue reading My husband is better than any man
Good morning WordPress followers of this MMMOTHER-ship. As per the usual program, I bring you the news as is revealed to me as chief muse. Partaking in my morning habitual routine, I detected the motif of "sight" upon my feed. There were, of course, different perspectives on this motif. Instead of commenting, I kept my … Continue reading (4 Feb 19 @ 8am) now-sight; knows-it; gnosis.
27 August 2018 I have been a terrible friend lately. I abandoned my old group of friends, essentially. Because I didn’t need people anymore. I’m sociopathic. Or psychopathic. Or empathic. It doesn’t matter. I don’t need people. People are useful. And different people fulfill different roles in ones life. So even though I am quite … Continue reading Rerun 029: In need of a friend
I must make note of the time. The exactly fucking anything that I know to be true. That is right now. I know I am not dreaming. I know what is real and not real, I know physical shit, but I am garbage at physics. That's why I like metaphysics. Because it's philosophy. It is … Continue reading 26 January 2019 11:06pm
25 January 2019, 3:48pm; I can see what's happening. It's like none of you have any clue that this is the same damn thing that happens all the time... every time. EACH AND ANY OF THE INUMERABLE DAMN TIMES! I am out of balance. And I don't know how to get back in to balance. … Continue reading I could tell you a theory of mine
It might be better for you all if you don't understand me. My problem? I only ever wanted to be understood... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ehq2a8lum_4 2008? The year I started university. The year my daughter was born. I went into labour noon 4th July (Australian Eastern Standard Time). She was born 5th July, at 3:53am. She is wonderful. … Continue reading My mind is a horror show, splish splash Pontypool of lava
All I wanted, all I needed was you in my arms. Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm. Enjoy the silence. No we're not nameless, we're not faceless, we were born for greatness. What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I love turns on me in the end. You could have had … Continue reading The black swan dives for Ja & Me’S.
Ok I was going to do a thing about appreciating the people in my life. Particularly in relation to aesthetics. So my very first person is my mate James Ascough. He's super fucking awesome. I have known him since 2005 when we worked at The Reject Shop together. I've got anecdotes up the wa-hoo but … Continue reading James Ascough – artistic to the bone