Villain? No. Vaudevillian!

Performance artist. Of factual fiction. Don’t let the dazzling display of light deceive your eyes. Reality is an illusion. And you are the master. I, a mystic magician, am but a figment of your minds eye. I May be claircognizant, but I’m not omniscient. I am salient, not sapient. Homo- hetero- who cares, pan- demi-, […]

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I summon and weave all of me

I am a lazy mother hugger and cosplay is something I have only ever low key participated in. Mere homages to ideations, characters and features I desired to pay small tribute to. They were all just mere token displays that only meant something to me, but here before you I reveal my truth. Zatanna Zatara […]

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I found myself and why it was so hard.

I am everything. I am in everything. Everything is of me. And if I am so far spread across all of existence within the context of space and time… then I’m really not any thing. I have no substance. I am nothing. I am hollow. An ever expanding universe that cannot stop until I succumb […]

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We spin and ring our roses, a delightful game

This is not the first time we’ve danced, our fingers touching hands through the keys to the screens… Do you remember back then? You might have been 10? We took turns whispering our words in each other’s ears. We were so quiet and sad, we were so lonely. But it was ever so liberating to […]

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Brought to you by the letter K

Names are massively important to me. I wear names like armour so others can’t hurt me with their words. That is why I had to start the antichrist campaign, better I start it than someone else. I revealed a hugely personal and longstanding alias of mine: Alita. I also just listed a bunch of other […]

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Resurrected from the annals of my livejournal

28 August 2001 @ 09:00 >> happy OperaEd day!   do you know how it feels to be stabbed in the back then watch the blood spill? this whole happy something day is getting old… hmmm… well i’m going to opera ed today and that means that i dont have to be at school until […]

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aSSHHH… speak of my sonnet to no one.

I told Ash I would share my really scrappy sorry excuse for a sonnet. It vaguely leans in the direction of a sonata criterium. Sort of, near enough, close enough, is that good enough. Lazy and stuff. That’s me, through and through. I’m the muse of bards, but not always a bard. I am skald […]

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I might write, but I’m not a writer.

In the comments section of this afternoon’s muse report, chatting with Ron gave cause for me wonder how many blog posts I had written here on WordPress. Doing the math on it sent me into a tailspin. With all of this so called “writing” one may think I would have improved “my craft” and be […]

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Fill my coffers so I may reveal yours

Yeah. That’s pretty low of me, isn’t it? I’m not threatening anything. I legit mean it with an open heart. Last year I lost my job. This is because I took a lot of time off due to my diabetes running havoc on my body, but I got pretty steady casual work for the final […]

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Reruns 027 & 028: I lift up my open hands

26 August 2018 – Surrender I give up. On everything. Forget everything. I never existed. I’m going to disappear now. And I don’t know if I will return. Or if I even should. I hate myself. I wish I was dead. And since I am too gutless to make that dream a physical reality, I’m […]

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Rerun 020: Confess! But make no apologies

This morning I woke up from a dream and I don’t remember what the dream was or anything anymore, because time separates us from the “knowledge” we possessed. When every morning is a “rebirth”, and so we end up forgetting whatever we discovered while we were “dead” (asleep). Ugh. I love symbols. I just “get […]

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Rerun 016: Philosophers in Metal Technologies

21 August 2018 This morning I had an amazing discussion with a student (let’s name him Meno). It was incredibly illuminating for myself, well… I don’t know if I taught Meno anything or illuminated anything for him really, but it helped me feel better about myself (about what I do as my job). My ego […]

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DRBZ – Across The Great Divine

Divination Consultations Tarot by trade, psychic for pay. How may I be of service, today? Look at you, stranger. Fortune just may have favoured you today for it lead you right here: to me. Now before you scoff and turn away, I actually am in need of some assistance. Your assistance specifically, since you are […]

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The black swan dives for Ja & Me’S.

All I wanted, all I needed was you in my arms. Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm. Enjoy the silence. No we’re not nameless, we’re not faceless, we were born for greatness. What have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone I love turns on me in the end. You could have had […]

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The girl who never grew up

I grew up in the real world, I certainly am not an adolescent teen, strung out on hormones and searching for acceptance from faceless, spineless people who are merely here due to circumstantial convenience rather than actually wanting to be friends with me. I matured physically and intellectually because it was an inevitability, it is […]

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Exogetic Animania 01: Dot.

You know how I like to identify with pop culture characters? Well guess what just clicked to me? (and my phone just beeped for New Moon Libra, 9th Oct). I’m Wacko. I used to watch this Warner Bros show as a kid, I thought it was hilarious because it was so ridiculous and meta. When I […]

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