The Real Deal

I’m heavy water…

The state of water is dependent upon the environment it exists. So I could be an ice queen, or steamy. I try to be more mindful of myself, my words, my actions because I do understand their power and influence. I tend to act a mirror with people, and when I may be trying to do something (particularly although not exclusively with my writing, as that memorialises words), the ones I am closest to can think I am being mocking or derisive.
I love and I try my best, but I see every hesitation or hear every tonal inflection with such sensitivity… If I do not address it, then I am being wilfully ignorant. If I do react, then I am mocking or melodramatic.
I try to keep my expressions and self descriptions neutral because I am such at the whim of my sensitivities. I fluctuate between these extreme states of being… my inner chaos is what actually brings me peace, but it disturbs the people around me, that is until they get to know me and accept that I may mean everything I say, I do not always feel that particular way… all things are temporary,

Leave a Reply

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.