What the fuck? No.

This song is playing again. But… It’s 2.36pm.

You don’t want to be someone like me at all.

What’s the point of teaching anyone to see shit the way I see it?

Where’s the public actual fucking hands down EXPLICIT DIRECTIVE.

No where. Because people are curious to observe the fuxking train wreck of a life ruining .

I must turn the music off. Turn the radio down. I am the radio. Hah… fucking hell. I’m lost in the audio.

Fuck you all. Too music noise is made anyway. I didn’t want to contribute to the shit. There’s too much information and noise and light and physical pollution anyway.

My solution to end over population was to just shoot eve ry one out into space. No life support. Let them asphyxiate on the empty nothing.

I don’t care. I don’t know them, everyone can suffer. Just spare the people I do know. The people I give a fuck about.

Well… how about we just shoot me into space instead. All aboard the dogstarship.

And I am the pink Kat. Sigh.

My world is a mess. I’m a specimen.

The plan is to put myself into hospital. I’m done… my life is fuxking shit. I am shit. I can’t stand existing like this anymore.

And since I’m too gutless to suicide rifle squadron myself, I can do the next best th ing and send myself in… mental health act, wipe my brain clean. I don’t want to be me.

Or just extract it and shove it in a jar on your science shelf.

I mean hey, my collection of Hearts in jars was a metaphor. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have that affect on people…



Categories: The Real Deal

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  1. may you find peace you’re needing!!…
    http://www.suicidenotmyheart.wordpress.com

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    • Thank you. I appreciate it. But I am fighting to win the love of my own J. He is the one who grounds me and empowers me. I appreciate your message of Jesus. But Jesus is more like my brother, than my saviour.
      The world needs a new teacher of contemporary origins for too many souls are jaded and separated… There are too many preachers of hypocrisy, not hope and autocracy.

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  2. sorry to hear that preachers of hypocrisy prevents you from seeing HIS gift of salvation, love, forgiveness, and the hope HE offers… HE conquered sin and death for us to truly be a Savior who makes a way to go to Heaven assuredly… no other teacher (who will be human and so be jaded and separated) can ever bring what HE alone gives and promises in this life and the life to come… I only share this truth because I care for you and HE has proven in my experience to save, rescue, restore, and redeem my very life… If ever need support and encouragement, I’m here to listen and am available to help…

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    • I know. Thank you. I read you loud and clear. Many blessings and love and light and laughter to you and yours. Everyday is a new day, and this is but day one of this new year.
      Here I am, with open arms and open hands, holding out hope. I hope.

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