20 December 2018, 10:32 pm; I downloaded a shit ton of images to use as part of this fucking blog post and i am typing with a single finger. Because if I use more than one finger then i make mistakes. I get angry at these mistakes because what is the fcking point of anything IF I AM NOT ALLOWED TO MAKE MISTAKES. Because I express emotion and frustration and rage at the sheer volume of everything that goes wrong.
And if I emote ANY EMOTION TO ANY DEGREE, I AM TOLD TO CALM THE FUCK DOWN.
SO FUCK IT.
I HAD LIKE 16 MOVIE POSTERS TO SHARE WITH THIS POST AND THEY ARE NO WHERE. AND I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF FUCKING HAVING TO DO EVERYTHING MYSELF.
SO HERE IT IS, WITH ZERO PHOTOGRAPHIC EVIDENCE TO GO WITH THE BLOG TITLE.
- I 100% WITH MY WHOLE ESSENCE OF EVERY FIBRE OF MY EXISTENCE WISH I WAS DEAD. I AM COMFORTABLE WITH THE WHOLE WORLD CRUMBLING TO DUST AND NOTHINGNESS ALONG WITH ME.
- i am 32 years old. I am a filthy dirty slut whore who has cheated on my husband. He never deserved any of the shit I did.
- So to all my “friends” who talk about us behind out backs – I did it without his fucking knowledge. I am the whore. I even have photos and a whole website to prove it. Check your facts.
- To anyone who knows us in real life, seriously. I’m the pretty face that makes things work out. He is the successful amazing person, the honest and upfront spearhead of existence.
- I’m not “putting myself down”. I AM THE UPSIDE DOWN.
- It doesn’t matter what I do, or try to do, I will always be perceived to be different. Because I am the wrong kind of different.
Yeah, I am the reason history repeats itself, and perpetuates the status quo built on lies. LIES ARE WHAT HELP THE WORLD MAINTAIN ORDER AND STRUCTURE. THROUGH LYING, WE ARE ALL ABLE TO FEEL COMFORTABLE ABOUT OURSELVES AND OUR PLACE IN THE WORLD.
SO, i hope to keep everyone else’s REPUTATIONS IN CHECK AND GOOD SUCCESSFUL WORKING ORDER.
I am out to burn everyone and everything to the ground as I burn myself to pieces. I feel very good about this.
I am not undergoing psychosis. I am merely a psychopath who is out to symbolically murder and kill everything.
Because I hate everyone and everything equally. Because I hate myself.
I am a dirty fucking whore slut who enjoys sex. I didn’t want people to hate themselves, that everyone is worth loving. Except in trying to share that message with the world, I betrayed the love and trust and everything good that was in my life.
I am the only one responsible for my life.
Categories: The Real Deal