And I want to explore all of them. I want to write about them all. I literally have 7 pages of written down in notebooks of various different ideas that I do want to write it out.
I write a lot of lists. It’s how I can sort through all of the junk that goes through my head . and I am so motivated by my emotions and by my wings that most of the time I hardly follow through with anything because it really depends on well wouldn’t feeling at the time.
I call myself amuse
because I know that I inspire things and people and I know that I can.
I often talked about requiring human interaction engagement engagement with my audience. But no-one ever really does that I mean no I never really actually answers. So I look for answers in what I see around me I am majon as if they’re answering my questions because they felt the question even if they didn’t hear it.
I am not anything Supernatural or special. There is actually nothing that special about me. That’s what makes me cry and that’s what makes me want to cry because I can see lots of different perspectives at once. I can see the value of other people because of what they can contribute to a given situation. And when you’re so stuck inside of yourself it’s hard to see where you fit into the rest of the world or into the grand scheme of things. So I can’t I don’t know.
I struggle to explain myself because it really depends on how you see me. I’m usually a bad person not that I am bad or anything I don’t think I’m bad but I I’m perceived by others to be the path to Evil full stop new line I’m not evil I just don’t give a s*** I don’t normally care about what anyone says because they always think the worst of me anyway but I know what I’m like and so I try to be as true to myself as I can be. I know how to see things differently and I often I don’t know I talk to people and they see things differently just from talking to me. And it’s I think that’s why I think I’m valuable. Because other people seem to think that I’m valuable. And if I can keep feeling that I am valuable and I’m valued for my thoughts comma then maybe I’ll eventually be able to believe it.
And by believe it I mean that ellipses you know when you say things to yourself so often for so long and you believe them? That’s all this is full stop new line
I am whatever people say I am whatever they say that I am because that’s what I vote in them. Because that’s how I exist in the eyes or minds of other people. If it wasn’t for other people I’m not anything really.
I wouldn’t be a wife if it wasn’t for my husband
. I wouldn’t be a mum if it wasn’t for my children. New line i am not any sense supernatural or special . There’s a chilling nothing that special about me . That’s what makes me cry slot makes you want to cry because i can see lots of different perspective that one . I can see the value of other people because of what they can contribute you’re giving situation . I mean you’re so stuck inside of yourself it’s hard to see where you fit into the rest of the world or into the grand scheme things . So i i can’t i don’t know full stop new line i struggle to explain myself because it really depends on how you see me . I’m usually the bad person not that i am bad anything i don’t think i’m bad but i am prestige by others to be the pasta evil full stop new line i’m not evil i just don’t give a s*** i don’t normally care about what anyone says because they’re always interested anyway but i know i’m like and side try to beetroot myself as a candy . I know have you see things differently and i often i don’t know i talk to people and they see things differently to some talking to me . And i think that’s why i think available . Because other people seem to think that i’m available . And if i can keep feeling that i’m valuable and i’m valued for my thoughts , then maybe i’ll eventually be able to believe it full stop new line and buy believe it i mean that ellipses you when you say things yourself so often so long i believe them ? That’s all this is full stop new line new line i am what other people say i am whatever day saturday um because it’s what i vote in it . Because it i exist in the eyes reminder other people . If it wasn’t for other people are not anything really full stop new line i wouldn’t be a wife the wasn’t to my house tonight . I wouldn’t be mum if it wasn’t for my children . I was i would be a friend if it works for the people who sticks by me beside me or with me through me .
I have a whole bunch of ideas about things that I would like to write about and most of them but really all of them are about me.
Everything is a true story that well from me it’s a true story. And it’s so hard to explain it other than through allegory or metaphor. I don’t write about anything that I don’t know about but I know me I oh my god I know me I’m an expert about me. I’m a narcissist I love thinking about I’m talking about myself.
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