MMMother

I need actionable advice. This is real time

Ok. This modern mystic mother is not real because it is just a fucking thing on the internet where I type stuff. ME, K, THE WRITER is real. And I need advice right here right now from my followers.

This is the blog that has the numbers, this is where people be at. This is my main page. But it’s so mucky and murky and mother fucking complicated….

I want a way to clearly distinguish to you all, my readers, when something is posted in real-time reactionary… and when something is “scheduled”.. because… I’m making more and more accidents with my postings… I’m not used to having “different blogs” for “different audiences” it’s soo confusing…

That’s why I made themetankard.wordpress.com

That’s real time. not constructed. I schedule nothing there. I just type and respond.

But I need advice right here right now….

People like the unscripted unedited version of me…

So i’m thinking.. if I made a category or some graphy or some thing…

i don’t know…

and now… my daughter hung up the phone from me because i was having a panic attack because i disappoint everyone in life..

and j just said he doesn’t blame her because he told her that from repeated behaviour that if she wants anything she is to bring it to him because i don’t do shit…

ok…

ok…

so.. what do i do…

i’m not worth shit

i don’t do shit..

i’m shit shit shit…

i’m going to cry…

i want to cry…

i’m soo… full of shit…

no one has any right to listen to me or do anything or anything… because i’m just shit…

my perfect life? turns out it was a perfect lie. a lie i told myself to make myself feel worthwhile… i’m sorry for making anyone believe life was worth living… it’s clearly not…

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    • I have no idea how to categorise them . I think that was one of my posts that got heaps of hits when I first started blogging in August. Lol maybe I’ll rerelease that. And multiple blogs thing isn’t so much of a dealio, it’s the scheduling of for publishing of different stuff. Ssttting it out in time

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  1. When shit happened, I became shit. The cowdung! I turned into manure and let they small grass shoot grow ! Converting or being able to convert shot to shoot takes patience and grit and a keen sense of our surrounding to find our inert resourcefulness. Swearing is good IMHO, IT lets the bad air and poisons within come out. Swearing helped me when I was down and out! Near bankrupt. Self deprication was soon taken over by self empowerment and Time healed the wounds, the manure called shit became my growth promoter. But that’s life. To each one their own. I was like you and know. I wish you well. Regards Jay

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