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(Psychic Empathic Wisdom from Pictures & Energy & Words) Of course you want your tarot read by me. I’m shooting lasers. It’s ancient wisdom delivered in a futuristic (contemporary) way.
Card #28 Death and the Maiden:
invasion, boundaries violated, dominance.
I know it looks totally bad when you first look at it. I remember the frustrated futility of trying to explain to my husband how I thought that this was a perfect representation of our relationship. He took one look at the card and was like “What, and I supposed I’m Death, right?” and wouldn’t hear any of it. So it’s funny that it jumped out of the deck as I was shuffling thinking of what I could share with you guys today.
Yes, the key words do paint a somewhat bleak view of the situation. Death doesn’t have a jaw, it just sits there uncomfortably close to the topless chick whose eyes looks like they’re holding back tears, she’s trying to be strong.
This makes me think of Persephone and Hades as the archetypes for LIFE & DEATH.But life and death are scary concepts so nobody want to be faced with such FINITE terms! To help you understand it without FEAR of DEATH, I’m going to change it up. No people, we’re going to with purely fictional symbols.
You are in control of your own reality and your own life. We are all here and just exist as best we can. It is how we choose to share this existence with others in our lives that determines whether we are death or the maiden in this card. This card is about recognising what role you are imposing upon a particular relationship or interaction.
Death is hungry, death is incapable of ever feeling satisfied for it has no bounds. Or no guts or bucket to fill up. How many scoops of air can you put into your imaginary bucket? It is limitless because it has no limits.
The counterpart of death is the Maiden in this card. It can also be representative of LIFE, something that is finite as it has form. The maiden is material, it’s a “thing” in relation to death as a conceptual being.
Specifically in your day to day you should be mindful of being manipulative or perhaps even “too close” for comfort. You should seek CONSENT before you do anything weird. Or perhaps you are on the receiving end of this type of energetic relationship. You’re feeling vulnerable and violated. You have regrets and remorse so you may feel duty bound to not speak up about who is “breathing down your neck” or “whispering in your ear”. You have resigned yourself to suffering through because it is your responsibility or a requirement of you.
The number 28 is just the number of this card in the deck (perhaps for ease of locating it in the booklet thingy), but it has come to mean a number of finality, or completion reached as part of a combined effort. You are part of a team (even if it is small. You can still be a team of 2). You can only succeed if you recognise your roles in the dynamic and perhaps temper the energy or “vibe” you put on the other person. Are they uncomfortable, vulnerable, or sensitive? Are they domineering, intimidating or imposing upon you?
Or are these two aspects of YOURSELF? Are you trying to bring your shadow self out into the open but maybe you’re afraid of the unknown – what will others say, what will become of you, how will you be received..? Or even how are you going to be able to face even yourself…
I worry that you are completely aware of what’s going on inside of you, that you’re trying to not fall apart, and that it is creating fissures in your psychological stability and just.. everything. I’m scared that by fighting and resisting you’re just going to hurt yourself even more. Yes, it’s cracked, and yes, it’s breaking apart. BUT SOME THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T WIN, and you should accede to the natural order of things… Because when your walls come down around you, at least then you can finally see the beauty of the sky and the horizon.
Please take care of yourself and of each other. Seek help. Be explicit in the help you require – even of that specific person “I need you to ,……..” or “I would like it if……….”
If you need or want or even DUNNO whatever… I implore you to take that initiative and contact help. Make that effort. People can’t read your mind even if they can read your body language or blog. Click “contact”, or open your email and write, or unlock your phone and just fucking call them. Even if you don’t ask for help, just reach out and tell them you just want to talk about something. Or tell them you love them and miss them. Tell them you ate all the chocolate and cookies and if they could buy you more.
I’m really hurting for you. I want you to be okay.
I’ll be your Angel of Death, if you need me to be. I’ve done held that title a few times before. Please stop fighting. I love you.