Destruction of the vessel

I’m in so much pain, emotionally, mentally. I don’t know what to do.

I imagine a sword above my head, dangling above the opening of the crown chakra. It is dangling there ready to pierce my skull and plunge through my body, severing my spirit from my flesh.

My emotions are the problem. And I don’t know the vessel in which they reside – is it the mind or the heart? I have to destroy their control over me…

I used to be in control of them, because I wasn’t alone, I had help. But I don’t have that luxury any more. It’s up to me to figure it out now.

I’m a bomb technician who has to cut the cord, but which cord do I cut? The blue one. But what happens when they’re all blue? Your guess is as good as mine.